I am not going to bore you with my life details. I am fast forwarding to THAT
day…The day I made the decision to take my life back. The day when my
#roadofsteel started taking a turn. I was at a very bad space in my life at that
moment. I started questioning everything around me…started questioning
myself…my GOD…my existence… What is my PURPOSE? What makes me
tick? What makes me happy? I soon came to realize that I don’t know myself at
all…And that scared the living daylights out of me! If I don’t know myself, how
can I expect anybody else to get to know me?
I was unhappy in my job, my life’s decisions…I felt trapped and everything in my
life turned to sh#t at that stage. I was on my way to work that morning, when I
made that decision. “Screw this sh#t! I am taking my life back! I cannot be placed
on this earth just to work, pay bills and still feel broke, empty and worthless! I
mean, REALLY!!?? There must be more to life than that!?”
So I decided to make a few drastic changes. First of all, I need to get to know
myself. Pronto! I need to spent time with myself, the people that matters most in
my life as well as my career. Eish! I didn’t even get chance to take a pee at that
stage in my life. Everything was a rush every day! “Time for all those fancy
luxuries?” Really? Well, YES!
I have a choice though. Two actually! Either make it happen, or die trying. ‘Cause I
cannot go on like this! Life sucks too much!
That day I prayed for the first time in a long time. And I mean really long time. I
also mean, PRAY. Not the little prayer you shoot up to keep you calm and not kill
the dude that drives like an asshole! I’m talking about the real McCoy! That one
where you feel you are standing in front of HIM and have a discussion. At that
moment I felt I had nothing too loose. I might as well go big and fall through HIS
door, and plead my case! So I did!